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have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
yes i have

what had happened just before?
Nothing, that's what makes me feel so bad. Nothing happened. I have had really bad urges for the past couple of days and I don't know why. I have just been struggling with this, and I couldn't take anymore. Does that make sense?

what were you thinking and feeling?
thinking - "I can't fight anymore" "I can't take this anymore"
feeling - weak, tired, out of control

why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?
I don't think so. I jsut couldn't take it anymore. I had been fighting for so long. Anything could have pushed me over the edge, but nothing happened that caused my to hurt myself.

how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.
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were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
My doctor and I just decided to start over with my meds, and she cut down how many meds I am on down to one.

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
I tried everything in the book to keep from cutting, and they all worked for a little while, but I just gave in. I couldn't take it anymore.

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
I can't think of anything. Help???

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
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how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
I had jsut had really bad urges over an extended period of time, and it became too much to handle. It is resolved now, because the urges are gone.

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
Probably. I will hopefully recognize it when even the littlest things are getting on my nerves.

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
punching a pillow
throwing a ball against the wall
writing in my journal


Emily

I can understand the urges and not haveing anything directly causing it that I can think of.
It seems a bunch of seemingly little things just pile up.

what were you thinking and feeling?
thinking - "I can't fight anymore" "I can't take this anymore"
feeling - weak, tired, out of control

What made you feel out of control?

I was feeling out of control because there was no reason for the urges, I think. It's hard to place the feeling with a reason. I just know that everything felt like it was falling down around me. Does that make any sense?

Emily