after - pathetic me strikes again
Posted: Tue Mar 15, 2005 10:03 pm
have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
Yes... four bandages on them and I've washed them very good.
what had happened just before?
My boyfriend Brett broke up with me and not to mention the stress of the Ohio Graduation Test weighing down on me...
what were you thinking and feeling?
I felt pathetic, ugly even... I was thinking "There's gotta be a way out of this f*cked up life of mine"
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?
I just couldn't take anymore pressure... I was going to explode if you can understand... Brett breaking up with me was the last thing I could stand. He had been the only sanity I had and I lost him... I felt like a f*ck up.
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.
I dunno exactly... I know the pressure of the Graduation test started weighing down on me and that got me really freaked out and the point i was failing two classes... I'm on new meds which don't seem to work and I hate my new T...
were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
no
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
I didn't try anything else
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
Probably just crying would've helped a lot. Crying does seem to ease stress for me - but I can't seem to let myself cry without thinking I'm acting like a baby.
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
1) It's ok to cry
2) People will love you just the same if you do
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
Well a break up I guess is sort of resloved - except I would like to know why he did it... In that case, I may just call him and ask him about it.
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
No, because once the OGT pressure is over - I won't be so easily push over the line over a little stupid thing like a break up.
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
1) cry
2) punch a pillow
3) write some poetry
xXx Charm xXx
Yes... four bandages on them and I've washed them very good.
what had happened just before?
My boyfriend Brett broke up with me and not to mention the stress of the Ohio Graduation Test weighing down on me...
what were you thinking and feeling?
I felt pathetic, ugly even... I was thinking "There's gotta be a way out of this f*cked up life of mine"
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?
I just couldn't take anymore pressure... I was going to explode if you can understand... Brett breaking up with me was the last thing I could stand. He had been the only sanity I had and I lost him... I felt like a f*ck up.
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.
I dunno exactly... I know the pressure of the Graduation test started weighing down on me and that got me really freaked out and the point i was failing two classes... I'm on new meds which don't seem to work and I hate my new T...
were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
no
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
I didn't try anything else
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
Probably just crying would've helped a lot. Crying does seem to ease stress for me - but I can't seem to let myself cry without thinking I'm acting like a baby.
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
1) It's ok to cry
2) People will love you just the same if you do
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
Well a break up I guess is sort of resloved - except I would like to know why he did it... In that case, I may just call him and ask him about it.
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
No, because once the OGT pressure is over - I won't be so easily push over the line over a little stupid thing like a break up.
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
1) cry
2) punch a pillow
3) write some poetry
xXx Charm xXx
What can you do to change things for the better? Is the crappyness temporary, if so, how can you make things more bearable until it passes? When is the graduation test, what can you do to get yourself through until it's over?