Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? I cut, or I fled to BUs for suppot, but tonight BUS just isn't enough, my thoughts aren't stopping and self injury is all that will stop it. i feel desperate and pathetic.
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? I've come on BUs, and I've tried to sleep it off, but nothing is working. I could twirl baton a little or read my book for homework..but I doubt I'll be able to pay attention.
How do I feel right now? Anxious, nervous, tense, stressed, upset, worked up, manic, fucked up.
How will I feel when I am hurting myself? Relaxed, calm, relieved, peaceful.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? Guilty but calm/relaxed. Tomorrow I'll feel guilty but glad that I did it.
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I guess. I don't know. I could not be so fucking dumb and let this shit bother me.
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Do I need to hurt myself? No, I don't need to, but I feel the want to terribly.
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