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I dont' know what to I do....
I just have these urges to go through with it...i dunno why...
My feelings just flood into me,and then I lose myself and I screw up..It's been 30 days tonight since I've SI'ed...And I don't want to do it again..But these urges.....

sounds difficult.

if you're drowning in lots of urges and bad feelings, i can see why it might be hard to pinpoint what's going on or where they're coming from. but i'm wondering if you have any clearer sense of what the feelings are; can you name any of the emotions that you're experiencing? the reason i ask is because i've found that looking closely at what i'm feeling is often the first step in dealing with it.

thirty days is fantastic. you must have some good skills in place already to have done that.

dragonfly