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# Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
Todays been really bad, felt so shit all day just want to let it out.
# Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
Yes. I distracted myself. I felt better for a while, then worse.
# What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
I talked on instant mesanger. I foned a friend.
# How do I feel right now?
I feel like im going to explode. Like theres lots of pressure inside me, building up. I feel really cold.
# How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Good. Relief. Controlled
# How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Guilty, ashamed, worried.
# Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I can try removing myself from situations before it gets too much
# Do I need to hurt myself?
no. no i dont

that does sound difficult. i hear you about the thinking you're going to explode thing. do you think that sense of pressure building is linked to particular emotions? (i'm just thinking that sometimes when i can look at what's going on a little more specifically, like realizing that by feeling "bad" i mean feeling anger or guilt or fear, it helps me cope with it better.)

i hope you're doing okay.

dragonfly

well the friend i foned came round and i stayed stafe
thanks for your imput silverdragonfly xx