bus

punish me for being a bad mom.

self-punishment. yeah. i'm very easily seduced by that one, too, so i'd be interested in anything you've found helpful for challenging those thoughts. one of the things that has helped me at times is to make myself tell someone, in excruciating detail, exactly what it is i've done that i think i deserve to be punished for. i think the getting it out helps with the shame piece, and it's often enlightening to hear an outside perspective.

but that's a tough place to be. i'm really sorry that you're hurting so badly. i'm definitely sending encouragement to keep going, and hugs (if okay).

you're in my thoughts.

dragonfly

I went to marriage counceling last night and talked about it. She actually said the same thing my son's therapist said that it sounded like a manic episode. They want me to take him to a physichiatrist that works in his therapists office.

Talking about it did defuse my feelings. So it did help. Thanks for listening.

Terri