not having custody of my kids. phsycially ill. not sleeping. stressed. overwhelmed. beginning to hate my job again.
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
si'd
i felt suicidal before. i'm not quite there at the moment, but definietly in the "i need to run away" mode. i could get drunk but that most definitely would make me feel *su*What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
i've played in games, posted in my place, arc, my lj, im'd with a friend. cried. called into work cuz i just can't go tomorrow. need to talk to my t but that's not an option till 0830 tomorrow. i've eaten tonite. i've watched tv. i've petted the cat.
How do I feel right now?
unbelievably sad, overwhelmed, and exhausted. completely exhausted.
How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
like a loser. but then (hopefully) numbness will set in.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
numbness maybe. tomorrw? upset with myself for giving in and si'ing.
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
1--need a new job
2--need custody of my kids back...longterm process
3--need to be physically well (at least another week)
yes i can deal better when i'm not sick and tired (no pun intended)
Do I need to hurt myself?
no
