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i'm not sure if this is the right place to share this, please forgive me if it's not ( just new to this forum)
i have been trying to go the month of september without cutting. so far i've only relapsed 3 times (which is incredible compared to what i used to be like) and even those times weren't as bad as they normally would be. so anyway, i was thinking all day yesterday 'i have to cut i have to cut'- it became like a mantra. that night i got everything out and set it all up to cut (i'm very ritualistic when it comes to si) and i had the blade pressed to my skin. in the back of my mind this tiny voice whispered, 'you're making the wrong choice'. i actually listened to it and put down the blade and packed everything up. looking back on that i can see how i made such an incredible decision- i've just been learning recently that every choice we make, we either choose life or we choose death. (not in the exact *literal* sense, but in a manner of speaking) i'm trying to turn my mind around to choose the *right* path rather than the convinient and 'cop out' path. it's hard and sometimes i fall, but i just have to get back up and brush the dust off and keep going.
i just really wanted to share that. sorry if it's not appropriate on this forum, i'm really sorry.

i am sure this is the right place for this. i am so proud of you that you could listen to that voice. i am glad that you can actually listened to that whisper.

Congratulations on this magnificent achievement. i think sometimes we all hear that voice but just see no way out. you are an inspiration to me. that was all i really wanted to say.

thank you so much. that means a lot to me. i'm struggling a bit right now though...