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Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

My bf told me he'd got me nothing for our anniversary tomorrow, then he said we could go to town and choose something on Sunday.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?

Boyfriend issuse are hardley knew to me but this hasn't happened before

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

Wrote in my place but still feel empty

How do I feel right now?

Hurt, empty, worthless

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?

Less empty at least, I guess if I SI it will give me physical pain and make me less numb

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?

Torrow I will probaly just feel bad again, as soon as my bf finds out he'll get upset and i'll feel worse

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?

I can't really avoid it

Do I need to hurt myself?

I guess I don't need to but I want to and I want to feel again.

Can you talk to him about it?
I know that may not be helpful, but it may help to understand his motives. Do you feel like he didn't have time for you or think of you- or maybe he just wanted to make sure you got something you liked (hence the picking it out).

Have you been here before- I noticed you were talking about the 'actual' situation as opposed to the emotional one. Have you been in this situation before emotionally?

Is there else can you do to give yourself a strong physical sensation? Squeezing ice cubes, doing a grounding exercise...etc.

Whatever his reasons for delaying your gift, none of his decisions makes you less worthy of anything.

JoAnna

littlethings wrote:Can you talk to him about it? know that may not be helpful, but it may help to understand his motives. Do you feel like he didn't have time for you or think of you- or maybe he just wanted to make sure you got something you liked (hence the picking it out).

I have talked to him, he said he wasn't sure if I'd want to be with him after I got back from my holiday sop he didn't get me anything.

littlethings wrote:Have you been here before- I noticed you were talking about the 'actual' situation as opposed to the emotional one. Have you been in this situation before emotionally?

Emotionally yes I have, lots of our arguments leave me feeling empty and worthless

littlethings wrote:Is there else can you do to give yourself a strong physical sensation? Squeezing ice cubes, doing a grounding exercise...etc.

I played the guitar a bit but there isnt much I can do without having to explain it to him.

littlethings wrote:Whatever his reasons for delaying your gift, none of his decisions makes you less worthy of anything.

It makes me feel less worthy, I feel like he had no faith in me when i went away

Dungeon_Lilly wrote:It makes me feel less worthy, I feel like he had no faith in me when i went away

Could it be that he had no faith in himself?