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Post by Eisa » Sat Jan 25, 2014 9:48 am

Before You Self-Harm
  • Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
    -There's been a lot of drama on Tumblr that I've read through today about a person who's very unsafe--but reading about it and then reading people's responses has made me feel very unstable and horrible, especially because some of the responses are bringing up memories/flashbacks/etc.
  • Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
    -Honestly, no, I haven't really before. Things on Tumblr have upset me before, but not usually in the sense of bringing up RA memories before. :-?
  • What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
    -Listened to music, tried to distract myself with my happy Tumblr, reblogging Pokemon pictures, etc. Um...I guess I could make a Polyvore set about how I feel, or something calming, or cuddle a stuffed animal. I could switch, but I'm afraid my emotions and flashbacks and everything would leak through to whoever came out, and I don't want to do that. :o
  • How do I feel right now?
    -Like I am the most worthless human being on the planet, and my existence should be erased.
  • How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
    -Like it's what should happen.
  • How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
    -Like I've atoned for something, but it won't last, it will be a very fleeting feeling, and then I'll go right back to feeling awful, and then doubly awful for having given in and relapsed.
  • Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
    -Be more careful about looking up information about unsafe people in such huge chunks, for a start, that wasn't a good plan...I knew I shouldn't keep reading, but I did, anyway.
  • Do I need to hurt myself?
    -Hopefully not. Still trying not to.
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