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Before:

Before You Self-Harm
write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself:

• how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
  
  I don't know. I feel like I can't breathe. I'll relax a little.
• what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
  
  Bring:
  
  Relief, some distance between me and my head, less anxiety
  
  Take away:
  
  My almost 10 months free, my ability to get the trikot I want, my sense of accomplishment.
• how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
  
  I want it to go away. I don't know.
• if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
  
  It depends on how much. I'll probably sleep or drink.
• what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
  
  I could fill out these questions, clean, watch soccer, stay here on the board or reach out....I know this situation is just a feeling.....
• how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
  
  Guilty
  I'll probably have forgotten the urge if I don't hurt myself
• what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

Drink. But it's 2pm. I...don't know.

Hey there - how are you doing?
Sounds like the urge was really strong for you... Did you manage to find a way to keep yourself distracted until the urge passed? Hope you manage to get some sleep and that the feelings can pass...
han x