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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
I will feel calmer and less frantic and trapped.
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It will take away all the emotional pain I'm experiencing and replace it with calm and numbness.
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I don't know how I want to feel about this in the long run, honestly.
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
The relief will last long enough for me to see my psych.
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
I could eat, but that would make things worse.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I will feel horrible either way.
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I just want to be held and told everything will be okay, I want all the things I'm dealing with right now to just work themselves out.