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Before:

• how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
  It will make the thoughts of just ending it all away for a while.
• what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
  It will make me feel better for a while.
  Ill feel worse afterwards when the guilt kicks in
• how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
  I want to stop doing it, I know its not normal. Doing it isnt going to get me any closer to stopping.....
• if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
  Depending on how bad, could last for hour or more then I can go to bed and hopefully sleep. Always get to sleep quicker when ive si'd.
• what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
  I know this is wrong but right now I feel too tired and dejected to try not Si. I know I should distract myself, I guess thats what im doing now so some part of me doesnt want to do it. Not sure that it will change the situation, just delay the Si
• how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
  Guilty, stupid, like a failure. If I dont Si tonite ill prob want to do it tomoro
• what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

I really want to have someone hold me while I cry, tell me everythings going to be ok. And I want to believe them. But thats never going to happen


urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.

More Before Questions To Answer

• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  I want to do it to make the thoughts of suicide go away
  Im always at this point, sometimes I can fight it, sometimes I cant
• Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
• How do I feel right now?
  Confused.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  Relief. The fear of hurting people by giving in to suicide will be gone for a while.
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  Better now. Horrible tomorrow morning
• Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
• Do I need to hurt myself?

Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.