Before
Posted: Sun Sep 19, 2010 7:49 pm
- Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? ody re
Nobody really likes me. No matter how hard I try to recover, I might make some progress but it tends to slip right back. I can't call the person who I usually call cos they are busy. - Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
Not the 'nobody likes me'... I havent felt intensely like this I don't think... But the slipping back, pretty much all the time... - What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
I have started talking to a person I know. I have listened to music. I can continue to do this. - How do I feel right now?
Hurt. Apathetically fustrated. - How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
I dunno. No idea. - How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Probably nothing one way or the other. - Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I dunno. I wish I could chill out or avoid being me. Even though thats not looking out for others cos people go through a lot worse than this. - Do I need to hurt myself?
No, but I don't know what else I can do right.
