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More Before Questions To Answer

• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  I'm stressed about my friends who aren't doing well, and if I can cut and detach from everything, I won't be stressed and worried. And not stressed or worried means i'll be better equipped to deal with what's to come. ...In theory...
• Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
  Uh, hm. Yeah, I have been here before. I hid in my room. I felt mad at myself for ignoring my friends.
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
• How do I feel right now?
  I feel like there's nowhere to go, nowhere I want to go. I feel trapped, stagnant.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  Faraway.
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  Quiet inside. I don't know how I will feel tomorrow.
• Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
  No, and if there is a better way to deal with it in the future I don't know how.
• Do I need to hurt myself?

I can't honestly answer yes to this question, but I can't honestly answer no either.