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Questions to Answer After A Slip
slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action.

• what had happened just before?
  nothing, I'd had a good day at work. things are gneerally going well at the moment
• what were you thinking and feeling?
  that I had to do it, that i had to sabotage things but I can't get to the reason why
• why did you end up bingeing then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
  nothing I can see, I'd had some temptation in the house for a few days which U suspect dind't help but I don't know what made me get to the point of giving in last night
• how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
  I could have stopped after i first got home and had a few biscuits
• were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
  maybe lack of sleep but it's not something i can really change for the next month or so becasue of work, it might be different after that but i'm not sure really.
• what other ways of coping did you try? how well did they work?
  I did't relaly try anything else, I've been exercising over the last couple of days and I was singing loudly in my car on the way home wihc always helps me de-stress.
• in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
  anything but what i did. going to bed, not eating, choosing toread instead of watch tv, making myself a hot drink
• name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
  I think i knew them all already, i just *shose* not to use them
• how do you feel about the situation now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
  finding out what it was would help, i dont' think there's an ongoing situation as such i suspect it was just something that had been dwelling for a while i'm not really sure
• are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
  I knew what i was planning to do and probably had control to stop it but again i chose not to and i don't understand why becasue i knew how it would make me feel afterwards

I don't think this was overly useful really I still don't know what triggered it, guess i just have to accept that and move on!