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• how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
  
  My mind will stop racing, I’ll be able to calm down and sleep.
• what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
  
  I would like to read, but I cant focus long enough to finish a paragraph. I could stay on the internet until I get to bored of it. I don’t think that will last long enough.
• how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
  
  I will feel like shit as always. Why should that stop me know though? If I don’t, I most likely won’t sleep and tomorrow I’ll be tired and bitchy.
• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  
  I fail at life. At everything, and every wrong decision I’ve ever made is running thru my head at once. I want to cry but can’t bring myself to do it.
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
  
  I watched Conan, which is over now. I tried to read a book and couldn’t.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  
  I will feel just fine.
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  
  I wont start to regret it until the morning, but at least I’ll sleep thru the night.
• Do I need to hurt myself?

Well, of course not.

i know how it is with needing to SI to go to sleep...i hope you're doing okay, stay safe hun.



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Thanks
I slept less than an hour last night, but no si.

sorry you didn't get much sleep, but i know it was probably hard not to SI...be proud of yourself.

Thank you for the replies- nice to know someone is listening.
Trying to be proud...