after

[ambivalent red]

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
yeah

what had happened just before?
I was talking to my husband about how depressed i was. I told him I was SU


what were you thinking and feeling?
I was sad. I wanted to die.


why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
I cried and my husband held me. It made me feel weak.


how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
I could have called my T on his cell. But it's Sunday, I think I will call him tomorrow, though.


were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
no.


what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
I talked to my husband, I think it only made me feel worse.


in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
call doc. dont be alone.


name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
Just try really hard next time. I dont know.


how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
It's not resolved. My H and I are discussing me going IP. I think it is a good idea and he doesnt. He probably does not realize how bad it can be for me.


are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
I'm always there.


what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
call doc
call Best friend
dont be alone

[funkymusic]

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
yeah

Okay. So! I usually just lurk in this forum and read about how people feel before/after they SI. But sometimes, I comment. So I have a few things to say today.

First of all, good job taking care of your wounds. I remember the last time I saw one of your 'after' posts, you hadn't, and I chided you on it. So thumbs up! That's a step towards taking care of yourself.

Also, I've noticed that a lot of your "what could I have done?" answers are to call your T. Can you try to think about that more actively next time? Maybe it crosses your mind and you don't want to? Just think about it a little more?

Take care of yourself, dear! I hope you feel better very soon!

[ambivalent red]

Thanks Funky!
Yeah I remember when you called me out on not taking care of my wounds. So, oddly enough I actually take care of them because I think "funkymusic will question me!"

Yeah, calling the T thing is tricky. It was on a weekend and I can only reach him on his cell. He has a wife and 3 children. 1 is only 1! I feel like a bother, what if he was sleeping in or what if he was out to lunch with his family and then I call "whoa is me, put your life on hold and take care of mine more a minute."

Calling my T will proabably never happen. Unless I call his job and I know he will call me back. But that does not cover weekends or nights.

I might have to think of something else. I have tried the before questions but some of them or redundent to me.

Thanks, for looking out!