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after

Posted: Wed Oct 08, 2008 5:45 am
by minus-sign
have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes

what had happened just before? nothing. i cant think of anything.

what were you thinking and feeling? i was watching a movie for work. to make sure it didn't skip so we can play it. i didnt know i was doing it.

why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it? lack of focus? maybe? i've been wanting to for over a week now. its taken an effort not to.

how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw. i cant answer that. i...dont remember doing it. I've been thinking for an hour now. i dont remember doing it.its nto a blackout. i was aware of everything but. until it was done, i didnt know.

were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how? sleep, maybe. i haven't had a good sleep in a while.

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work? lots before. posted in before. self care when i could. animal therapy (dog). cant think of all of them.

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they? probably. i cant think of one right now.

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
make a pocket card. something to fit in my walet. does it have to be two? i cant hink of something new.
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution? i feel like a parent whose "special" kid hurt itself: "i just took my eyes off em for a second."

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation? yes. i zone a lot.

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
friends. more self care. clean house. more.