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Posted: Mon Oct 06, 2008 3:47 am
by depressed1
-how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

i will feel better for now and get rid of my current urges

-what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

Bring: relief for now, and worry about me from some people.....
take way: my urges and current depressed state

-how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

i want to feel like i don't need SI anymore, its taking me farther away.

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

Lately it's been daily. I hope it will last the night time at least. What do I do then... well... try to delay myself AGAIN and si eventually...

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

i could talk to someone, write more poems, go to sleep, play a video game.
it will last for a couple of hours at the most....

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

i'll feel less urged and more relieved, i will still feel the same possibly a slight bit better or worse.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

i want to bleed and to relieve my urges.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

my heart being broken again and my pain being too unbearable...

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?

i SI'd and stopped eating entirely

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?


i've distracted myself and it hasn't been working.
i could talk to someone or write, or go to sleep.

How do I feel right now?

like SI and SU, horribly urgy and very depressed

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?

Relief, feeling the urges leaving

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
i'll feel relieved less urgy and somewhat more happy but ashamed that i gave into the urges

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
go to sleep, talk with my T more openly, get to the proper meds/dosing, write more, find a better way to work through stuff


Do I need to hurt myself?
no but i really really want to and don't really see why not to?[/b]