- how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
It wont. But I'll be numb. - what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It'll allow me to not care for a while. - how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
This situation won't matter in the long run. I guess it's just agonizing now. Hurting myself is probably going to get me further away, because when I see the scars I will be jelous again. - if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
The relief will last probably only until the cut stops hurting. I guess after that that could give me so called "strength" to grit my teeth & bear it. - what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
I could talk to Hannah. I guess it could distract me. I only need to be distracted now. After that I'll be okay. - how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I'll be back to obsession over hiding the scars. Tomorrow if I talk to Hannah, I'll be proud I kept myself from SIing, but ashamed I have to depend on someone else. - what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I don't undertsand the question.
More Before Questions To Answer
- Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
Errr. Kind of the most childish thing in the world. My 2 best friends and 1 good friend are all going to an Elliot Minor gig without me, and have gone in hyped up mode together. Without me. They are sharing all sorts of "hilarious" in jokes from various hyped up convosations about said gig. >.< - Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
I've dealt with jelousy 100 times over, I think. I've been violent, on my own, like hitting the wall. - What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
I've come on here and filled this out. I can carry on browsing BUS. - How do I feel right now?
Calming down. - How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Erm. I guess "savage" is the word. - How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
I'll be over obsessive about hiding the scars. - Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I can deal with it better in future. - Do I need to hurt myself?
I don't need to hurt myself. But I don't want to admit that.
