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Okay, it's been a really long time since I last slipped up, and I was so proud of myself. I've learned that I can control my feelings about it, but today was totally different. It was like I had absolutely no control over my actions. I TRIED to talk myself out of it, but nothing was working, so I did it. And right now, I'm really mad at myself for it.. and just to keep myself safe, I'm going to ground myself from sharp objects for a long time. =/