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• # how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
  The urges will go away and I'll be able to calm down and relax if only for a few minutes.
• # what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
  It will calm me down, but I'll feel bad about it later. If I don't do it I'll feel worse now but better when the urges are gone.
• # how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
  I want to feel better, but cutting wont bring that in the long run.
• # if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
  It's not a good option but feels like the only thing I can do right now, but if I do it the urges will come again in a few hours probably.
• # what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
  I can fight the urges but I can't bring myself to do anything to distract myself from them right now. The fight may pay off but it might also fail.
• # how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
  I'll feel bad about it tomorrow if I si, I might feel good tomorrow about it if I don't.
• # what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
  I just want to feel better and urge free, si will bring it the fastest but I don't know if it will keep them away for as long as I like.

More Before Questions To Answer

• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  I'm just a fuck up, I can't get anything right, and can't stop screwing up.
• Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
  I can't remember.
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
  I haven't done anything besides try to fight this.
• How do I feel right now?
  Horrible and hopeless.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  I don't know.
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  Bad. Mad at myself for doing it.
• Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
  No.
• Do I need to hurt myself?
  Yes. I don't think the urges will go away this time if I don't.

Gah I can't stand these urges, I can't even stay still. It's driving me nuts.

Hey there..

Seems that you know that SI is a temporary relief, and that you'll feel better tomorrow if you don't SI, but any relief sounds like a good idea to you at the moment? Perhaps you could try drawing, reading, watching a movie... Would calling somebody help? Browsing the Distractions page is really helpful for getting your mind off things.