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Posted: **Mon Mar 03, 2008 9:11 pm**

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

its going to make me feel calm and it will make the pics i have in my head real

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

It will make the pics in my head true, but it will make me feel shamefull, and it will take me further away from the record that im soon going to break of si free days since august 16.

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

it will make me feel worse, and it will not make me closer to my goal of being si free

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

it would last until tomorow, and then ill feel bad again

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

i dont know, talk talk talk

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

I would feel guilty, and i would feel better if i just talked about it

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

i dont know

More Before Questions To Answer

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

I have theese violent images in my head that are hard to tackle

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?

Ive took pn medication (ive done that) but it dont help, ive tried to get throu it by talking about it

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

i have taken pn ive had talk about it and i can take my evening medication

How do I feel right now?

baaaaaaaaaad

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?

i would feel great

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?

i would feel guilty, and tomorow i feel worse

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?

i going to talk to my pdoc about medication change, and talk to a guy i know that knows a lot about medication to ask what he would recomend for me

Do I need to hurt myself?

NO