after
Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2007 5:17 pm
- what had happened just before?
i found a family oic from when we were a family - what were you thinking and feeling?
i fucking wish i could have this now. i want to be a normal family - why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
because i cracked. i just couldnt handle it anymore - were there outside factors like drugs, alcohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
alcohol.. but its always their these days - what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
i put some music on. tried to write in my journal - how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
no i cant make my family normal. to move forward i need to stop hoping it will change
- are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
i will. the loud family screaming will make me remember, or the absence of a family at christmas - What made that opportunity more appealing than any other?
the idea of feeling pain - Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking?
it was there for the taking - What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge?
gone for a walk and made the opportunity - If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased?
increased - What consitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling?
being alone. having my tool case - If your opportunties were taken away, how would you feel?
- Did I identify what feelings were leading me to want to SI?
yes - If Yes - What were they, and how did I figure them out?
memories