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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
it wont but i know im getting what i deserve

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
i deserve it, so justice i suppose

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
i dont know

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
it wont bring relief this time. this time its supposed to hurt

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
nothing. nothing at all.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
disappointed.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
cut


Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
i just realized how much i deserve to be hurt. how much pain ive caused. how much ive done to other people.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
once. i talked to my friend and he told me how wonderful i am.....i felt good about myself....like life was worth everything and everything was okay and i was okay... but im not

How do I feel right now?
like crying, alot

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
like its the only good thing ive done

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
disappointed probably

Do I need to hurt myself?
this time....yes, i do. i deserve it.

you don't deserve it hun.... you're doing the right thing trying to resist