Before SI..

tools to help you assess your urges before you give in to them, and to help you understand and learn from slips after they happen. by posting here, you're saying that you are serious about exploring the feelings behind your self-harm in depth, whether you're ready to stop hurting yourself or not. to request posting access, click usergroups above and join before and after.

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Before SI..

Post by XtearsXofXpain » Mon Nov 26, 2007 7:46 am

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
it wont but i know im getting what i deserve

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
i deserve it, so justice i suppose

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
i dont know

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
it wont bring relief this time. this time its supposed to hurt

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
nothing. nothing at all.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
disappointed.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
cut


Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
i just realized how much i deserve to be hurt. how much pain ive caused. how much ive done to other people.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
once. i talked to my friend and he told me how wonderful i am.....i felt good about myself....like life was worth everything and everything was okay and i was okay... :cry: but im not

How do I feel right now?
like crying, alot

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
like its the only good thing ive done

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
disappointed probably

Do I need to hurt myself?
this time....yes, i do. i deserve it.
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Post by idork » Tue Nov 27, 2007 1:47 am

you don't deserve it hun.... you're doing the right thing trying to resist

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