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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

Feel like someone is caring, even if it is just myself.

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

Hopefully the fact that I can be in more control of myself and that I can talk to others a bit more than I have so far.

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

I just want to feel better...Not sure if it will though

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

It'll last me until the end of the school day, and then I'll be with my friends that I like and care.

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

Scream at other people about wanting to be alone or just being alone somewhere else. It'll make things worse because people will be wondering where I am, it'll change nothing and I'll feel even worse than I am right now.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

I'd hopefully feel better because then I'd be able to eat something instead of fearing everything, I'd feel even more crap if I did the other thing because everyone will moan even more...

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

I do want to cut because I'm sick of everyone taking the piss, school, work, family, everything! And I don't understand this part of the question, sorry...

urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.

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Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

Because I feel everywhere apart from my best friends are just abusing me. My family are taking the piss out of my best friends, work are abusing the fact that they don't realise the work that I try and do, whilst everyone at school just take the piss anyway, yeesh why bother? Only now with someone asking about my sweatbands and blatinly taking the piss out of the fact that I SI has bought me to this point.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?

Never been this bad before, feel physically and mentally done for, even though it's only nearly noon, so I feel cutting is the only way to deal with it...

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

I've tried writing things down and keeping myself distracted with homework, however that hasn't helped me because I'm feeling too ill to do the homework and I feel like a failure...again.

How do I feel right now?

Crap, alone, angry, fearful of being anywhere, scared of going to my next lesson with out my Economics teacher finding something to pick on me about.

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?

That I can fuck the world and put myself first, I can get away from anyone that abuses me and make myself priority.

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?

I feel I can hopefully be more "with the world" or "back in society" during the rest of the school day.

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?

Apart from running away from it all, not really.

Do I need to hurt myself?

I feel I do, it's my only way out to get through the rest of the day without hurting someone else...