bus

here i am....



i never liked this forum "before and after" i think i have said that before..

i hate me
i hate my life
i was once married to a beautiful wife
i fucked it up by being me
now alone when once was we

since this time i dated a few
maybe 10 different girls
and now a jew

this one i love so vey much
she cares
and loves
with a gentle touch

but i fucked it up
thats what i do
the scars of life
they show right through

so one more cut
so simple and neat
like taking myself out for a treat
the candy so red
the pain so blue
the scar still there

of the time i loved you.



all of you.






here goes nothing...................

I read, Ghoulie. I care.

Hi Ghoulie
I like your poem...do you ever post in the Expressions forum?
It sounds like you're going through some really hard stuff, and it's understandable that you'd feel the urge the self-injure when you're under that kind of stress. It doesn't make you a bad person that you self-injure when you're under stress; it's a coping mechanism. Have you ever thought about what you might do instead of self-injure when you have urges? Do you need ideas for distractions?

You said that you don't like B&A...what is it about it that you don't like? Is there something we can do to help?