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[leemc77]

How will this situation or feeling change if I hurt myself?
I'm tired of everything in my life - nothing makes me happy anymore

What will hurting myself bring to the situation? What will it take away from the situation?
It would help me dissociate for awhile and maybe I'll be able to focus on the physical pain rather than the "mental" pain

How do I want to feel about this in the long run? Is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I really don't care...as long as it's somewhere people can't see. At this point right now...I don't know how I feel.

If hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? What will I do then?
Hopefully at least through this stupid get together my mother is making me go to. Maybe I can focus on the pain instead of my social phobia and feelings of being worthless right now. Afterwards...who knows?

What is something I could do now instead of hurting myself? How will it change the situation I'm in? How long will that change last, and what will I do then?
Not much...just sitting here waiting to go to my mother's house. It will help for at least an hour because I won't hurt myself in public. Afterwards, well lately I don't care....I feel I deserve it. I have that voice in my head that is telling me what a horrible person I am.

How will I feel tomorrow if I hurt myself? How will I feel tomorrow if I do the other thing i came up with?
I don't think it will matter to me...either way.

What do I really want to do right now? How can I best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
Cut...I don't know. I just want to be happy....is that too much to ask? The last three years have been hell - to me it's like cut or something else will happen.

Urges aren't necessarily the enemy. They happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. Remember that.

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Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
I'm in pain...I'm lonely and anxious and feel horrible.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
Many times, most of the time I've cut. Most of the time I really don't care how I feel afterwards.

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
Trying to distract myself on here.

How do I feel right now?
Super unhappy, anxious, confused, lonely, self-hatred...

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Most likely, I'll dissociate...

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Probably the same...I don't think I'll even think about it tomorrow.

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
At the moment, no - I hate myself and my mother is making me go to this thing whether I like it or not. I'm a freaking adult...

Do I need to hurt myself?
I think so....no one else seems to have any ideas that have worked....