before

[Binayshee]

Before You Self-Harm

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

i will feel relief and i won't worry about the stress of moving
anymore because "blowing it" is all i will care about and i'll
retreat from everything.

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

it will bring emotional and physical relief and it will give me a huge distraction from things i'm upset about. it will take away the good feeling and sense of success and competency i've been feeling.

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

in the long run, i want to feel good about myself and like i
can "do it." hurting myself would get me farther away.

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

oh it would be so bad. it would last about and hour
then i'd have worse problems because i'd have a ton
of shame and anger at myself.

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

well when i was writing above, i noticed that
what i would do is retreat from everything
if i hurt myself, its like a way of making
nothing else as important as how i feel
and how i'm doing. so maybe i need to
honor that and take a little retreat right
now. i'll go watch a movie in bed and
maybe fall asleep.

what do i really want to do right now?
how can i best honor the self-protective
instinct that has me wanting to self-injure
right now?

i think it's giving myself a night off and
a break from all the stress i've been under.