before.

[break the dayx3]

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

I will feel less anxious, less angry. But regret it.

* what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
I won't feel as bad for a while, then I'll feel horrible for going so long and than giving in.

* how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

closer, i guess.

* if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
few hours, do it again or sleep

* what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

I've been able to manmage it enough to just go to sleep, but I cant anymore. I know I'm gonn have a total relapse.

* how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Horrible.

* what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
Anger, Anxiety, Pressure I dont know what to do anymore.



More Before Questions To Answer

* Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

i just want to. and everything so much shit has happened

* Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
I was 5 months ago deep in it.

* What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

music, writing, rubber band, alot.

* How do I feel right now? angrey, numb, anxous, scared

* How will I feel when I am hurting myself? controled, great

* How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? like shit.

* Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? its so hard

* Do I need to hurt myself?i have to,