what had happened just before? i sat staring at my tools and where i wanted to si for about an hour crying what were you thinking and feeling? that the people irl have all forgotten me so i dont really exist
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it? i spent so long trying to think of excuses as to why peole irl could of not been replying to any messags, phonecalls email. and then i realised none of them are valid
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw. thinking to much about what i dont have. and how i feel.
were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how? lack of sleep. and i've been off my meds for about a month now.
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work? writing about what i felt. trying to get in contact with people irl. playing my bass. they were all ok. but overused.
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they? yes. having a shower. sitting in my lounge room while people were cooking. so someone was around
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution? no it isnt resolved.. actually far from it. chill out and go spend some time in a place where there are lots of people even if i dont know them.
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation? yes. and i wont be able to recognise it striaght away
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying. 1- go for a walk
2- play a game
3- think of a third thing to do
About Opportunities to SI
Opportunity to Self-Harm seems to be a common theme. Think about why opportunities are important to slips and learn why opportunity is important to you.
What made that opportunity more appealing than any other? i was alone
Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking? made it
What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge? clenched my fists till it hurt
If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased? decreased
What consitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling? being alone and having new tools
If your opportunties were taken away, how would you feel? very anrgy and frustrated and at a loss