Before
Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 9:10 pm
How will this situation or feeling change if I hurt myself?
- I don't think anything can change the situation
- Satisfaction knowing I'm in pain, when I caused his pain
What will hurting myself bring to the situation? What will it take away from the situation?
- The pain and suffering I deserve
- The overwhelming feeling of guilt
How do I want to feel about this in the long run? Is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
- In the long run - I don't know
If hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? What will I do then?
- I'm not sure, but is seems like any moment that takes this internal suffering away would be worth it
- I'll internalize it more...
What is something I could do now instead of hurting myself? How will it change the situation I'm in? How long will that change last, and what will I do then?
- I know the drill, I've got my coping workbook that I received during one of my IP stays - nothing is working
How will I feel tomorrow if I hurt myself? How will I feel tomorrow if I do the other thing I came up with?
- I think I will feel that my actions were justifiable
- Maybe I'll feel a little stonger...
What do I really want to do right now? How can I best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
- I want these horrible images to leave my head, I want to remember the good times
Urges aren't necessarily the enemy. They happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. Remember that.
More Before Questions To Answer
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
- I still blame myself, I miss him....
- This stupid, silly holiday that stirs up my PTSD memories
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
- Yes - I hurt myself
- I felt like I deserved it
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
- Sleep, rock, pace, tried to read, tried watcing TV, trying the strategies in my Coping Workbook
- I don't know...I'm about out of ideas
How do I feel right now?
- Words can not explain the sadness, grief, remorse, self-hatred, depression,....that I feel right now
How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
- Sometimes I feel nothing, sometimes I'm happy
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
- I will still be sad, but I deserve the pain - I blame myself, I let him down
- I will be upset, but feel that my actions were justifiable
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
- Start a petition to end Father's Day (and Mother's Day as well) - I know I'm being sarcastic - but there is nothing that I can do, this is one of my "I can't take/handle it" days that occur throughout the year
Do I need to hurt myself?
- I think so....
Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.
- I don't think anything can change the situation
- Satisfaction knowing I'm in pain, when I caused his pain
What will hurting myself bring to the situation? What will it take away from the situation?
- The pain and suffering I deserve
- The overwhelming feeling of guilt
How do I want to feel about this in the long run? Is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
- In the long run - I don't know
If hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? What will I do then?
- I'm not sure, but is seems like any moment that takes this internal suffering away would be worth it
- I'll internalize it more...
What is something I could do now instead of hurting myself? How will it change the situation I'm in? How long will that change last, and what will I do then?
- I know the drill, I've got my coping workbook that I received during one of my IP stays - nothing is working
How will I feel tomorrow if I hurt myself? How will I feel tomorrow if I do the other thing I came up with?
- I think I will feel that my actions were justifiable
- Maybe I'll feel a little stonger...
What do I really want to do right now? How can I best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
- I want these horrible images to leave my head, I want to remember the good times
Urges aren't necessarily the enemy. They happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. Remember that.
More Before Questions To Answer
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
- I still blame myself, I miss him....
- This stupid, silly holiday that stirs up my PTSD memories
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
- Yes - I hurt myself
- I felt like I deserved it
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
- Sleep, rock, pace, tried to read, tried watcing TV, trying the strategies in my Coping Workbook
- I don't know...I'm about out of ideas
How do I feel right now?
- Words can not explain the sadness, grief, remorse, self-hatred, depression,....that I feel right now
How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
- Sometimes I feel nothing, sometimes I'm happy
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
- I will still be sad, but I deserve the pain - I blame myself, I let him down
- I will be upset, but feel that my actions were justifiable
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
- Start a petition to end Father's Day (and Mother's Day as well) - I know I'm being sarcastic - but there is nothing that I can do, this is one of my "I can't take/handle it" days that occur throughout the year
Do I need to hurt myself?
- I think so....
Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.
