bus

i have been in this situation so many times before. i totally hate myself for getting here. it seems like the only ting that would help would be to cut. i know that in the long run it wouldnt, but right now, i NEED it! i am afaid of what i might od if i dont. so in that respect, it would be good, if it could prevent me from doing something worse.


i just feel so alone.

On bus you aren't alone, but I don't think that is quite what you meant.

I can understand feeling like SI now, to stop something worse, is worth it even if it doesn't help long term.

You said that you've been in this place before - do you mean feeling like SI is the better option to stay safe, or in terms of what you're feeling and why? If there is something that has lead you to feeling this bad this time, and its the same as before, maybe trying to find ways to get at it sooner might help stop this from happening again.

I hope that you're safe now sockr.