Before-this is rediculous
Posted: Tue May 15, 2007 2:49 am
Before You Self-Harm
write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself:
urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.
More Before Questions To Answer
Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.
write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself:
- how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
Ill feel better for now. Right now I'm upset and I'm hurt, and I pretty much hate myself. Those feelings will go away for a little while and I wont feel anything anymore - what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It will bring temporary sanity. I just hit 1 month without SI so it will take that away - how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I just wanna feel like I mean something, that I'm not being used, that I'm pretty, wanted, not fat, and not worthless
hurting myself will get me further from feelin that way - if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
It will last long enough for me to calm down and be able to sleep, and save me a portion of my sanity. Ill sleep after. And tomorrow is a new day and I cant possibly wake up feeling worse than today - what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Sleep. It wont change anything. Ill wake up tomorrow and nothing will be different - how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Ill feel shitty if i hurt myself, and ill feel shitty if I dont - what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.
More Before Questions To Answer
- Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
I cant deal with all the shit going on right now and all my feelings - Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
yes, i cut, and i felt better - What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
Ive cried, ive bitched to people, and ive posted here on bus. I could sleep. - How do I feel right now?
like i dont matter, like im fat, ugly, unwanted - How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Calm , relieved, alot better - How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
calm, at peace, numb maybe. Tomorrow morning idk - Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
If certain people that i like to call my boyfriend would stop asking me whats wrong then be "kinda busy" and have to get off the fone with me before i can even answer, If he could stop gushing about how his ex girlfriend he saw is gorgeous, and if my parents want to stop calling me fat then I could deal with this better. - Do I need to hurt myself?
Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.
