I will calm down and might be able to finally get some work done instead of leaving it all for tomorrow.
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It will bring a calm and clear mind for a little while. It will take away all the work I've done for the past year and five months.
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I think it would help me short term, but I would be upset about it afterwards. Hurting myself isn't going to really solve anything, just keep me from going completely insane right now.
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
maybe an hour....after that i'd either be working on homework so I would have gotten work done, or the fact that I ended my SI free time would be realized and I'd just want to cut again.
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
i've tried doing work (obvs not working), looking around bus, playin comp games, talking to my roommate...nothing's really worked.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I'll feel guilty if i hurt myself. I'll probably feel the same way tomorrow as I do right now. Desperate. Scared. Angry. Sad. Confused. Tired.
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
to hurt myself.
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
I have too much work to do and not enough time to do it in. I can't ask for extensions because it's the end of the year. I'm angry at myself for not speaking up about how I was feeling in therapy today. I'm angry that I most likely failed a test even though I studied really hard. I'm tired of all this pressure all the time. I can't take it.
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
I've been here plenty of times. Almost constantly lately. I've mostly ignored it and tried to do other things....and if that didn't work I'd try sleep. Sometimes the sleep helped and sometimes I felt the same as before I made myself go to sleep.
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
Tried distractions listed above. I want to try the elastic band method but I always end up bruising myself...so I guess that doesn't count as not hurting myself
How do I feel right now?
Desperate. Scared. Angry. Sad. Confused. Tired. (maybe a lil su)
How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Calm, clear, collected. Under control.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
The calm will stay with me for a while. Tomorrow I'll be upset that I have to start over from almost a year and a half.
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
It's school mostly that's stressing me. I can't really get rid of it...it's always there (at least for another year). I can work on organization and motivation.
Do I need to hurt myself?
Sure feels like it....I'm not sure.
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