Before... please help
Posted: Thu Jan 18, 2007 2:38 am
I need help. Support. Something.
I have been SI free since August 20th. Recently, as in, the past few weeks, the urges to cut have been coming on strong. It has gotten to the point where I think about SIing all day. It is starting to get in the way. It occupies every part of my mind.
I have worked through some of the questions. I do my best to comfort myself, because I am feeling in extreme need of comfort. I put on my soft fleece PJ pants when I get home from work, I grab a hot drink or my favorite soda, I settle down with my knitting (a source of meditation for me) and my fluffy, long-haired cat. Sometimes I put on a DVD of my favorite TV show.
The reason I think I may be feeling this way is because my New Year's resolution is to stop drinking. I have been sober for 17 days. But without alcohol to drown my feelings, the urge to SI gets worse and worse. I don't want to become an "after" again.
What can I do? Anyone? I don't know if I can hold out much longer, but I sure am trying...
Love,
Stevie
I have been SI free since August 20th. Recently, as in, the past few weeks, the urges to cut have been coming on strong. It has gotten to the point where I think about SIing all day. It is starting to get in the way. It occupies every part of my mind.
I have worked through some of the questions. I do my best to comfort myself, because I am feeling in extreme need of comfort. I put on my soft fleece PJ pants when I get home from work, I grab a hot drink or my favorite soda, I settle down with my knitting (a source of meditation for me) and my fluffy, long-haired cat. Sometimes I put on a DVD of my favorite TV show.
The reason I think I may be feeling this way is because my New Year's resolution is to stop drinking. I have been sober for 17 days. But without alcohol to drown my feelings, the urge to SI gets worse and worse. I don't want to become an "after" again.
What can I do? Anyone? I don't know if I can hold out much longer, but I sure am trying...
Love,
Stevie