Before....
Posted: Tue Oct 31, 2006 10:58 pm
-How will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
I'll feel better because I know cutting works for me.
-What will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
Anxiety, feeling hurt.
-How do i want to feel about this in the long run? Is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
Ashamed. Closer.
-If hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? What will i do then?
At least for today. I don't know.
-What is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? How will it change the situation i'm in? How long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Walk, stay online. Take my mind off it. Only for the time I'm doing something else. I don't know.
-How will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? How will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Bad, depressed, feeling like I let myself down. Maybe a bit better, but still feel the urge.
-What do i really want to do right now? How can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
Cut. I don' know.
Two months. I've gone two months with no cutting. I can't hold on much longer. I hate this. I hate myself.
I'll feel better because I know cutting works for me.
-What will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
Anxiety, feeling hurt.
-How do i want to feel about this in the long run? Is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
Ashamed. Closer.
-If hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? What will i do then?
At least for today. I don't know.
-What is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? How will it change the situation i'm in? How long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Walk, stay online. Take my mind off it. Only for the time I'm doing something else. I don't know.
-How will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? How will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Bad, depressed, feeling like I let myself down. Maybe a bit better, but still feel the urge.
-What do i really want to do right now? How can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
Cut. I don' know.
Two months. I've gone two months with no cutting. I can't hold on much longer. I hate this. I hate myself.