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Post by -manda- » Fri Jun 10, 2011 12:40 am

:blkstar: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
I will feel calmer and less frantic and trapped.
:blkstar: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It will take away all the emotional pain I'm experiencing and replace it with calm and numbness.
:blkstar: how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I don't know how I want to feel about this in the long run, honestly.
:blkstar: if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
The relief will last long enough for me to see my psych.
:blkstar: what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
I could eat, but that would make things worse.
:blkstar: how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I will feel horrible either way.
:blkstar: what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I just want to be held and told everything will be okay, I want all the things I'm dealing with right now to just work themselves out.
"You make it sound so easy to be alive, but how am I supposed to seize this day if everything inside of me has died?"
~The Spill Canvas~

"Self-injurers are often bright, talented, creative achievers - perfectionists who push themselves beyond all human bounds, people-pleasers who cover their pain with a happy face."
~A Bright Red Scream~

“Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.”
-Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club-

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