before

[ambivalent red]

Before You Self-Harm
write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: anger

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it will take the other pain away

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? i will ahev control over my pain, it will take away my pain

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? i want us to be friends, SIing doesnt matter to her, she wont see it.

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then? it will last for 20 mins depending

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then? i could smoke pot and watch a funny movie

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with? i wont have to explain popcorn. i will have to explain a new cut to my husband

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now? i want to lay down and fall asleep. im not sleepy.

urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.

[ambivalent red]

I did not SI. I really wanted too... but today I am glad I did not. Go me!