Before.

[xStarBright]

• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  I don't know. I just feel very empty and alone. Nothing as such has brought me to this point, apart from perhaps thinking about the future, and cutting myself off from others.
• Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
  I can't remember.
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
  I can sleep.
• How do I feel right now?
  Sounds like a cop out, but I don't know.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  I'm not sure. (Jeez, I'm so good at this. )
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  I probably won't think much of it.
• Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
  I'm not sure, I feel like this a lot recently.
• Do I need to hurt myself?
  Not need.

[xStarBright]

I curled up and went through all the coping mechanisms I could use.
Have a cigarette, get a(n alcoholic) drink, self injure, eat yoghurt were the ones that came to me.
I'm trying to quit smoking and drinking, and whilst comfort eating isn't great, I thought a yoghurt was the best of the 4...
I am still feeling bad, but like I am able to cope. Now reading certain article's online.

Take care,
Annie.