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beccah17 · Post by **beccah17** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 8:02 am

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

My mind will stop racing, I’ll be able to calm down and sleep.
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

I would like to read, but I cant focus long enough to finish a paragraph. I could stay on the internet until I get to bored of it. I don’t think that will last long enough.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

I will feel like shit as always. Why should that stop me know though? If I don’t, I most likely won’t sleep and tomorrow I’ll be tired and bitchy.
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

I fail at life. At everything, and every wrong decision I’ve ever made is running thru my head at once. I want to cry but can’t bring myself to do it.
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

I watched Conan, which is over now. I tried to read a book and couldn’t.
How will I feel when I am hurting myself?

I will feel just fine.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?

I wont start to regret it until the morning, but at least I’ll sleep thru the night.
Do I need to hurt myself?

Well, of course not.

LoverlyLaurie · Post by **LoverlyLaurie** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 4:36 pm

i know how it is with needing to SI to go to sleep...i hope you're doing okay, stay safe hun.

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beccah17 · Post by **beccah17** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 4:22 am

Thanks
I slept less than an hour last night, but no si.

LoverlyLaurie · Post by **LoverlyLaurie** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 8:38 am

sorry you didn't get much sleep, but i know it was probably hard not to SI...be proud of yourself.

beccah17 · Post by **beccah17** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 9:19 am

Thank you for the replies- nice to know someone is listening.
Trying to be proud...

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