After

[volta]

• have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
  yes.
• what had happened just before?
  my mom dropped me back off at my dorm.
• what were you thinking and feeling?
  i felt overwhelmed, and i wanted to make it go away.
• why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
  my brother said he couldn't go to church tomorrow and i was really looking forward to seeing him.
• how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
  too tired.
• were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
  tiredness definitely.
• what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
  i tried to talk to friends, but they only made it worse.
• in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
  taking a hot bath, reading
• name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
  i dunno.
• how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
  yes, i feel relaxed.
• are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
• what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.

[balletomane]

Hey Britt.

I am sorry things are hard right now. Being tired is just so difficult. It really lowers one's defenses. What do you think about in the future trying to take a nap before you hurt yourself? It might not stop you every time, but maybe sometimes it would make a difference. It wouldn't even have to be the pressure of committing to not hurting yourself. All you would be doing is committing to not hurt yourself for the next 15 minutes to an hour (or longer!) while you slept.

Anyway, just an idea. I hope you are feeling better.