BEFORE

[KLove24]

Before You Self-Harm
write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself:


* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
it really won't i just might not feel so damn alone and worthless

* what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
it will give me a sense of relief for a little bit it will help me feel alive.
it will take away everything i have been working for as far as trying to stop and trying to prove to people that i want to stop.
* how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
in the long run i just want to not care what people think, i want to not feel such anger and betrayal.
its not really going to make me closer or further away
* if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
it will only last for a little bit
i don't know honestly right now i just want to go to sleep and never wake up
* what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
i could do these questions, i could write in my book, i could call someone else
not very long at all i dont know i think i may just go to sleep
* how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
shitty because i let everyone down
probably the same as i do today since i will still be a friendless loser
* what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
i really want people to stop talking shit about me, i really want l to come over so i have someone to talk to this is way 2 hard
i dont know


More Before Questions To Answer


* Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
because c is making a point to joke about it and tell everyone and have a great laugh at my expense, because l won't come over, because i hate myself
all of the above

* Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
yes
i cut myself
shitty
* What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
these questions, went to dinner, texted people who aren't answering me back
write, internet, bath, sleep, tv
* How do I feel right now?
shitty, depressed, lonely, slightly su, basically all around crappy
* How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
alive, relieved, euphoric
* How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
relieved for a little bit
crappy for not being able to resist
* Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
i need to let myself not be so hurt by other people and them talking shit
* Do I need to hurt myself?
i don't need to but dammit i want too