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[recovering4me]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
i will feel relieved and less angry calmer and maybe able to funtion at work

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will make me feel calmer and more in control---it'll take away the control that i have over beating this thing


how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? i want to be past SI forever it'll put me one step farther from that

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
the relief will last for maybe an hour or so--then i'll want to do it again

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then? i can post on bus or just take a nap. it won't change the situation but it will distract me. i will go to work then come home and maybe clean a bit or go to bed.


how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with? i will feel stupid and pissed at myself if i SI today. i'll feel proud for not SI ing again tomorrow


what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now? i want a hug and to talk to wes and have him hold me. i can tell him what i need when he gets home


urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.

More Before Questions To Answer



Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i feel out of control and everything seems to be going wrong


Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? yes--i've usually cut. i felt stupid


What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? i've cleaned a bit --i can wait out the urge and go to work


How do I feel right now? like cutting deep and a lot


How will I feel when I am hurting myself? relieved, and in control


How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? i'll feel good for a while like an hour or 2 and then tomorrow i'll feel ashamed


Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? no i can't avoid it, but i can try and find something i can control and focus on it


Do I need to hurt myself? no but it feels like it


Remember you don't have to answer all the questions if you don't feel up to it.