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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Dec 05, 2007 8:24 am

it is so simple what is
all fo this
c%%ting
n
stuff
youd think we lost out minds
sad
sad
dad
no
longer here
grandma
your gone too
mother take your time please, i need you
just a drink and a thought of our time in these boots
and i learned we are all just men
no longer here
no longer live
no longer hangin round
cant wait to see you
gone, but

nothing


to late

only a
.....

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Post by caged bird » Thu Dec 06, 2007 12:17 pm

hope you're doing a little better now xx
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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Dec 12, 2007 5:58 am

curly i am here
your hair
as tangled web
of cobbs
old
and older i become
duller is my choice of seperation
stinging
drooling life that comes from me
sweeet red kisses to ease my pain
smooch smooch smooch
the lipstick stains my natural clothing

i hate who i am
and i
hate what i have become
the word is HATE!!!!!!

sweet hate
dance with me...
.....

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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Dec 12, 2007 5:59 am

:cry:
.....

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Post by ghoulie13 » Sun Dec 16, 2007 6:07 am

as i sit alone again
me with my pride
you know the one
the one that died inside

you can smell
this corpse
of love gone lost
drinking days
and sharp wit

my new found old friend

you turn red i turn blue
together we make one tenth of a rainbow we will never see

so it is
...............

as always
.....

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Post by treasure » Sun Dec 16, 2007 8:34 am

*reads*

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Post by ghoulie13 » Tue Mar 25, 2008 8:01 am

across this land i have bled
alone
you stood with me
alone
we were two
alone
together
alone
both
1


i am still here, waiting...



alone....
.....

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Post by ghoulie13 » Tue Mar 25, 2008 8:04 am

die.
death.
suicide.


dont look at me.

i am not a roll model.

fucked
up
m
.
.....

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Post by I'm.that.forgettable. » Tue Mar 25, 2008 11:51 pm

:star: I read. I really like your writing.. if you ever wanna talk or anything, just pm me.

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Post by pandablue » Tue Apr 15, 2008 10:03 pm

Little Brother I hope you are OK




*cries*

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