Beforee.. Now let's see if I can fight this.

[xStarBright]

• Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
  I'm stopping SI in the new year. That means only 8 day's of SI left!! I
• Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
  No, not really.. It's just a really strong craving because I know I only have 8 day's left.
• What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
  I've posted on here, so I can look back and think what I could do.
• How do I feel right now?
  Giddy, hyper, like I'm craving it so badly.
• How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
  Nice, like I am relieving the craving I have right now. I don't know, I just need to harm!
• How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
  "Wow that felt good." Relief, even though I don't need to relieve anything. I'll probably dismiss it as a slip, and that I'm stopping in the new year. I'll have to hide the scar's though!
• Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
  I will breath and let it pass.
• Do I need to hurt myself?
  NO!

[xStarBright]

I did actualy try.
But it hurt.
xD

[kurdt_kobain]

I did actualy try.
But it hurt.
xD

It does that.



Why do you want to stop at the new year? What are your reasons for choosing to quit? Maybe it would help to write them down so you don't feel so deprived and forget why as soon as you reach the date.

[xStarBright]

Because I think I should.

Lots of people say it isn't healthy..

My pastoral officer will kill me..

Um..

Thats it..

[xStarBright]

I went through with the SI last night, I tried again..

Ehh I don't know if I should do an after thread - it's been a night & all the feeling's are put down in this before thread..

Take care,
Annie.

[ashley_dp]

is there something that you can try to focus on to keep you from SIing? A hobby that you can work on? Go for a walk? Play an instrument? Sing a song? Just ideas to distract yourself