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[ChaosCat]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
The situation won't change. Just the feelings will.

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It will bring calm and sleep. It will take away my 10 days.

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I want to feel more in control. If I SI I will feel like I really can't stop and will be less in control.

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
The relief will last til I wake up. Then I won't be dealing with this or even thinking about it.

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Call someone. Stay online. Go use a coping skill.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I will feel unable to control my SI. If I go use a coping skill I will feel empowered.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I really want to do something violent.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
I don't deal well with being alone and I feel so lonely. I just want to sleep.

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
I don't remember.

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
I can go curl up with a cup of tea in my warm blankets and hope to fall asleep without cutting.

How do I feel right now?
Anxious.

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Calm

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Like an idiot for giving in to the urge. Like I can't stop and I will probobly want to cut more if I give in once.

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I can't completely avoid being alone.

Do I need to hurt myself?
No.

[idork]

*hugs* I think you can get through this, maybe you should take your advice *hands you some tea*, if you need to talk you can PM me