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Post by XtearsXofXpain » Wed Dec 12, 2007 10:00 pm

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
itll make the emotional pain go away...

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
it will bring relief and take away the emotional pain

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
i want everything to be okay....
maybe

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
til later tonight. then....then ill do it again

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
i dont want to do anything else.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
i dont know. i dont care.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
cut. i want to cut.


Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
because......im about to be all alone again and i need relief from the stupid emotional pain

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
no.......

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
nothing.

How do I feel right now?
overwhelmed. im about to burst into tears.

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
relief

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
i dont know.

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
no way to avoid it..........

Do I need to hurt myself?
yes....:cry:
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Post by dncn4lyfe77 » Fri Dec 14, 2007 12:44 am

Hope I'm not too late on this one.

I'm sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. Sometimes allowing yourself to cry really helps.

A question my T asked me one day: "What's the worst possible thing that could happen if you just let yourself experience your emotions, and not SI?"


The only answer I could come up with was that I would feel out of control and hurt emotionally. I wasn't going to die, though I felt like I could, and it would only last so long, then would pass.

Thats the one thing I found helpful to remember when I wanted to SI. I would tell myself that "this too will pass"


I hope I helped. I know I kinda went on a tangent. :-?

feel better <3
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Post by XtearsXofXpain » Fri Dec 14, 2007 2:09 am

i amazingly havent yet, but im very tempted to. very very tempted.
Live long. And live happy.
Grieve not forever, but a little.
Smile forever, not a little.
Give love and hugs.
It will save someone.
Have hope for you will give hope.
Live to the fullest, you never know...
When it will end.
Geminex wrote: Your body's an artwork.... don't ruin it. Don't feel this pain...

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